Step Two
"Came to believe that a Power greater than
ourselves could restore us to sanity."
To start with my higher power when I first arrive in
the halls of recovery was ME!
Did not take long to realize the people who were at
these meetings had been were I was
I sat and listened to many people share how they
began to believe in this higher power concept
A lot of what I was hearing
was good stuff about how to stay sober how to change ME!
This Group Of Drunks became my first higher power
even if I did not believe all the God stuff
They told me my Higher Power loved me even when I was
at my sickest point in my disease
They said you could pick yourself up surrender to the
disease make the choice go to a meeting
Get a lot phone numbers
and find a sponsor to help you learn how to find your higher power
Step two does tells us we
could be restored to sanity so I guess when I got here I was insane
That does not me I have been restored to sanity YET!
But I sure am not the same nut I was
Today I have the power to choose what my attitudes
and actions are to be this is freedom
Changing my behaviors linked me to my higher power
and mine is God, as I understand Him
As soon as I had stopped wondering what I could do to
bring my Higher Power into my life
He took care of my conscious contact to him only when
the time was right and I was ready
As an alcoholic I want to control everyone and
everything in my life it doesn't work that way
I had to work on my willingness and my
open-mindedness about this new higher power
In my past willingness was based on a "What's in
it for me attitude” what will I get from this
Always had to be an angle there some place I did not
know willingness comes from humility
And an honest sincere desire to change me and my
attitudes towards people places and things
I still have many character defects and shortcoming
that tend to get in my way at times
Thought I could get sober on my own will power only thing
I needed to change was not drinking
When I got to these halls I had no faith in any type
of higher power and I sure did not trust yours
I sure did not want that vengeful condemning God as I had understood Him
no way did I need Him
He sure was not going to help the likes of me the way
I always defied Him in my actions
He had already judged me and condemned me to down
under so who needed him in their life
When I listen to people share they kept telling me I
could use anything I wanted to as a higher power
As I started to use this Group Of Drunks I
was introduced to in the beginning of my recovery
I did want what they seemed to have going on in their
lives this was only working for a little while
I tried this prayer
thingy Got on my knees and asked Him for help to stay away from a drink today
It worked but still
something else was missing I still was not honest with people around me
Well I came out of that drunken fog and I
started to use this new power greater than myself
I knew this higher power could help me
recover from this disease and restore me to sanity
Because I had seen people just like me using their
higher power for peace and serenity
I need time to find out
who I was and who I could become thru the teachings of AA
I know today when my prayer is from the
heart it is a true prayer and am at peace with God
Through my conscious contact with my God I learned to
let Him be the source of my love
I understanding today what God most wants for me is
happiness contentment and peace
God is big enough to encompass what any of us may
conceive God to be
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