With
In Myself
If I expect to recover I must be willing
to trust in God and clean my own house
Fear and anger is what kept me from the
help I needed with anger I could hide the fear
I needed to lift the mask of anger so I
could start to work on my fears
I wouldn't let anyone get close to me I
feared if I did they would know how much I was hurting
It was easy to tell everyone I was all
right I didn't need help I didn't need them in my life
I could never let anyone see me cry I
would smile on the outside
While I was crying on the inside
No way would I let anyone know the truth
about the fearful child with-in me
Wanting to keep God out
He was a master at hiding whom and what
I really was
he showed me how to lie and be deceitful
When I lied I had to live in those lies
I started to believe those lies
So now I had to live in more lies
Never to find real friends or to know
what real love was
Until I discovered the God of my
understanding
Unconditionally loving and all forgiven
even knowing what I was how Deceitful
I was He still loved me
He will always let me feel the pain and
loneliness whenever I choose to walk away from Him
But when ever I start walking toward His
light I can again turn my life and will over to His care
He will again relieve me of the pain and
fears all I need is to seek His love and forgiveness
He will help me work for my recovery He
will help me discard all my old ways of living
All I need to do is accept His gift of
desperation that freedom from bondage from my hell
Yes I let that child with-in go find and
loving and caring God who is always with-in my heart
He forgave me and I must not judge or
condemn others
I must share His unconditional love with
them
You people gave me real everlasting friends
to help me see what I could not see for myself
I have found God is truly unconditional
love He will provide everything I need to live
His love is all I need to insure my own
serenity in the spirit in harmony with the Him
My Gods love be with-in your hearts
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