DISPAIR
Well
now it’s very hard not to get discouraged at times not just in recovery
But
also in life itself after all I am still just a human being
And
I would like every thing to run like clock works but even a clock breaks down
at times
So
despair is very much a part of my life its what I do to avoid this despair that
counts
Do
I sit and sulk or get drunk or do I do the next right thing
Like
talk things over with another friend or seek other kinds of help from
professionals
I
have found many times in my sober life things that were very discouraging
And
I have felt the hopelessness and despair slip back into my life
When
we lost or 11-year-old grandson to cerebral palsy
We
were there to help our daughter and her family thru their despair
Thank
God we could be there for them in their time of need sure despair comes to us
all
Fear
depression anger rage and resentments are all right there on my shoulder
Just
waiting like the bottle to take over my life again
The
big difference is that I have God at my side today
And
by using God when times get rough is a blessing because I can turn to Him for
help
I
have in daily practice been turning to Him to help me stay away from that first
drink
These
repetitive actions saved sanity and yes even my life more than once in recovery
My
wife and I have many health problems today
We
do get very discouraged at times when God seems just out of reach
But
thanks to the 12 steps of AA I can get back on track quickly today
And
God has never given me more than I could handle in just one day
God
bless all thanks for being here for me
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