Spiritual Experience

For me spirituality is knowing God is there for me and I have been awakened to this

Spiritual awakening is simply the knowledge that there is a power greater than myself

It’s that awareness that some form of a higher power is now working in my life

When I started my journey into recovery I had no real belief system of any kind

Nor did I want to pray to any type of God after all I had control of my life

Only thing I needed to do was stop drinking and move on with my life again

But I needed more I could see this in all the people I met in the halls when I got here

They just had something that I so desperately wanted a peace and happiness about them

The Spiritual experiences are a lot different than a spiritual awakening

Very few in recovery have that white light spiritual experience that Bill had

Well the time did come that no power on earth was going to keep me from drinking

I became as desperate as a dying man could become I admitted my powerlessness

I started to honesty pray to this God of your understanding six months into my recovery

I finally ask this God with all the honesty and humility I could muster up

I ask Him to remove the desire to drink and all the things driving my life be taken away

Well I had this spiritual experience that night lying on my mothers hide a bed

I awaken by the feeling of being bitten by rat like things and was scared out of my mind

This is what God was doing that night after I woke tossing these things off me

I went into a deep sleep it lasted 36 hours mom look at me and check to see if I was alive

I awoke with this fantastic sense of Well being I call absolute total serenity

This was the most wonderful thing I have ever felt in my entire life

It felt like He picked me up and held me in His arms comforting me with His pure love

This was a feeling of absolute total serenity it did not last long but enough to change me

Nothing on earth could ever match what I was given on this night so long ago

And total humility and honesty brought this fantastic change about

From that day on I had a wonderful relationship with the God of my understanding

I truly accept Gods will for me and I also thank Him each day for the strength to carry out His will

Gods blessing to Sandy and I are far to many to even begin to tell

Spirituality is not necessarily religion it is the yearning of the heart toward God

God and AA sure gave me this life of peace love and serenity

And He will for you if you ask Him God loves us all