Well it is not all about me today
Accepting myself was the hardest thing I ever had to do
When I started doing the fourth step I started to see how wrong I had been
How I hurt so many people I did not like what I saw looking at all the crap I pulled
And how I was at fault trying to control others in my life I want them to look up to me
Even when I lied to them and to myself I wanted their respect and trust
I demanded too much from them I was playing God with the lives of all around me
It was really a stupid drunken one-sided relationship I had with the whole world
I did not have any acceptance of anyone else’s feelings until I found AA
I was Broken and twisted a hopelessly lost person in that bottle of booze
It took me a long time to accept that I could change and be what God wanted me to be
But I had to find that acceptance of myself and be willing to change myself
I had to learn how to ask for forgiveness from those who I hurt in life
I also had to learn how to forgive myself for everything I did drinking
Page 449 finally came into play
(Page 449 third edition big book)
Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.
When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation
some fact of my life-unacceptable to me
and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation
as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake.
Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober
unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy.
I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world
as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
God has worked wonders in my acceptance of myself
And all I had to do is trust in Him
May God bless you as He has me
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